I was listening to my zune on shuffle a little bit ago and "The Moment of Truth" by Matthew West came up. I know the song is not particularly about this, but it just made me think back to my "Moment of Truth". Not the moment I accepted Jesus Christ, but the moment when I doubted Him and came back. To me that is a big moment because Satan seduced me with this world and the things in it. Made me doubt the existence of my savior and I am sure broke my Lords heart. But I came back to him. And to me, that moment is the moment that I knew Christ would then on be more than just my God, but the very cornerstone of my life.

I remember it was so tough. God had been a huge part of my life and then one day it was like I lost a part of me. I questioned for about a month and I have to say that it was one of the worst months of my life--if not THE worst. I felt so lost, so confused. In the end I turned back to God because I realized that if all there is to this world is my own self, then living was pretty stupid. May sound like a dumb reason, but that was my conclusion :P. Since then I have continued to grow in Christ so much. I am actually glad that I got my phase of doubting out of the way when I was younger. So many people do not doubt until college and then they are surrounded by the world and Satan sometimes wins much more easily. I can't say that I will never doubt again, but by the grace of God I hope not to.

I am not sure where you are in life, or even if you are a Christian. But I hope that wherever you are in life that you find the hope and love of Christ. He is so faithful and loving even through the storms of life. I don't see how anyone can bear to live without knowing that no matter what happens they will have God to fall back on. He will always be there for us, no matter what :).

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Pride, it's a huge stumbling block for a lot of Christians. I would tend to think that is that way because it is a sin that is easy to let creep in. I mean, we are all for self preservation. Why wouldn't thinking that we are good be, well good!

Lately, I have been feeling really close to God, and well, I have to admit I let a little bit of pride slip in with that. Not that I think that this is new. I think I have always had a small seed of it in the back of my head. But, I mean, I'm tons better than all those people who sin a lot, right? ....O wait, I DO sin a lot. Crap, guess that takes me off the "righteous" list.

Over the past weekend I noticed a gap in my relationship with God. It just didn't feel "full strength". I think that was God's way of letting me know about my pride. And it cost me something, as sin often does. It cost me closeness with my amazing God. Which I am starting to believe, is one of the worst punishments we could receive. I can't imagine the feeling of complete separation from God in Hell *shivers*. Anyways that is not always the punishment, but it is one.

Luckily, God showed me my folly, and I'm working on getting that taken care of right now. I now remember that I am not perfect. I will always try to live righteously, but now when I start to think that I am getting better than you. I'll think back to this moment and remember that I am not perfect. I will always be prone to falling down. I just have to remember that I am not holding myself up. But rather, it is my
Savior's love and grace that holds me up and keeps me moving forwards towards His will. I hope I never have to forget that again.