Pride, it's a huge stumbling block for a lot of Christians. I would tend to think that is that way because it is a sin that is easy to let creep in. I mean, we are all for self preservation. Why wouldn't thinking that we are good be, well good!
Lately, I have been feeling really close to God, and well, I have to admit I let a little bit of pride slip in with that. Not that I think that this is new. I think I have always had a small seed of it in the back of my head. But, I mean, I'm tons better than all those people who sin a lot, right? ....O wait, I DO sin a lot. Crap, guess that takes me off the "righteous" list.
Over the past weekend I noticed a gap in my relationship with God. It just didn't feel "full strength". I think that was God's way of letting me know about my pride. And it cost me something, as sin often does. It cost me closeness with my amazing God. Which I am starting to believe, is one of the worst punishments we could receive. I can't imagine the feeling of complete separation from God in Hell *shivers*. Anyways that is not always the punishment, but it is one.
Luckily, God showed me my folly, and I'm working on getting that taken care of right now. I now remember that I am not perfect. I will always try to live righteously, but now when I start to think that I am getting better than you. I'll think back to this moment and remember that I am not perfect. I will always be prone to falling down. I just have to remember that I am not holding myself up. But rather, it is my
Savior's love and grace that holds me up and keeps me moving forwards towards His will. I hope I never have to forget that again.
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